Boo Boos

In the last 2 days my youngest son (5 yrs old) has been fairly significantly injured twice. He first dropped a pretty heavy item on his toe and it essentially popped off the toenail. This was a really dramatic and painful experience. Then today he was standing on a stool to put something up and slipped, only to bump his chin on the counter-top and bite his tongue really hard. Needless to say, lots of bleeding and crying (for the whole family).

I'm sure every parent could say this, but I HATE WHEN MY CHILDREN GET HURT!!!!! It breaks my heart to see them in pain.

Ocasionally when I have these parental moments, I think about God. I think about what a pitiful, selfish, and insensitive father I am in comparison to my heavenly Father. It's so hard for me to picture this, but my Father loves me tons more than I love my precious, soft, wonderful son. I really can't fathom that He would love me that much.

Why is that so hard for me? Why is it so hard for me to mentally or emotionally grasp God's amazing love for me? I feel like it would revolutionize my life if I could live with a consistent emotional understanding of His love. I feel like I'd be full of such joy and contentment. I feel like my life would be so quicly rid of the things I do in search for life. I spend so much of my time and energy searching for life, fulfillment, and satisfaction. But if my heart were full of the amazing love God has for me, I'm sure I would be set free of this pursuit.

So, the age old question persists, "Why doesn't God help us experience this love on an emotional level consistently?" And the only answer I have at this point is that He wants me to trust Him that His love is true whether I feel it or not. He wants me to take Him at His word. His love is a proven historical fact. He loved me so much that He gave His Son for me (and you!). He also says that one day He will bring me to a place where this love is the constant reality of my existance. Wow! I can't wait to be there!!!